in light of recent events, i think i should review what i've done and what other people have done to me. reflect about who my real friends are, and who aren't. i feel that there is a need for me to prioritize my friends, which is something other people find so difficult hard to do.. probably because they get carried away by the spur of the moment, or i don't know. but no matter how exciting the moment can get, you never forget those who matter. or maybe i just don't have the same ideals as, ermmmm, some people?
i've wanted to write about this for quite some time, and now i am, but the write words aren't materializing. i feel like i have so much to say that i don't know how to state them all. they're mixed up and jumbled and i'm having a difficult time putting them in place. but what i'm trying to say is that i am hurt at how selfish people can be, and what hurts more is the feeling of being used.
i hate admitting feeling hurt and sad and all that, but there, i've said it.
i don't know what else to talk about but i feel the need to make a new entry just for the sake of it, and i don't want this entry to be too dramatic since i'm really not the type, so i am going to give you a recap of my not-so-interesting week hahaha:
TUESDAY - afternoon was spent the whole afternoon in ayala with a few friends, something i haven't done in the longest time - the ayala part, i mean. you know, the usual mall stuff teens-obsessed-with-chuck-taylors-and-friendster do? hahaha.
WEDNESDAY - was the first time i felt someone was angry with me. like angry-furious-wild-calling-other-people-to-tell-how-i-really-am-blah-blah sort of angry. apparently, someone thinks that i am very good at brainwashing people and charming them to side and sympathize with me.. but i will refuse to add more since things are already okay (i think) HAHA. i hate drama, and i hate being part of it more. anyway anyway, that night i got drunk and on..
THURSDAY - morning, with a terrible hangover, i went down to the dining room to eat but i threw up instead. since my stomach was empty, i puked blood! i know, i know, it's disgusting. but that wasn't the first time it happened to me. i should probably get my stomach checked, yeah?
FRIDAY - went to school to be oriented for summer duty. thank god our c.i. was my brother's classmate in college.
SATURDAY - isn't over yet, but i don't see any prospects of it getting any better than yesterday.
